idk so like i made new friends from a board gaming group and somehow they’ve like accepted me into their little inner group of friends and idk why bc im so fucking dumb but last week we had this boxed wine tasting thing and they invited me to it and i had fun but i cant shake the feeling that they dont like me and they’re just tolerating me or pitying me and i cant figure out why 

like i know i shouldnt feel like this but i do im so dumb its like i need constant reassurance that im not a bother and people actually want me around otherwise i just kind of get paranoid and feel bad about everything i do

like, they planned on going apple picking today and asked if i wanted to go so i was like hell yeah lets pick some apples and we had planned for 4 but i havent heard anything from anyone and i only have one persons number and i feel awkward texting him bc he never remembers my name idk im so fucking stupid